Love & Rockets

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Once there, we started eating. He was swallowing like he hadn’t eaten for two years ... I was watching at him instead of eating my own lunch. Just having fun you know, nothing special.
-Wha’ a’ you lookin’ a’?
-Don’t talk with your mouth full, Dipshit!
He took his time to swallow the rest of the food he had in his mouth.
-Don’t-call-me-that-way…
Silence.
-Anyway… What were you looking at?
-Looking at what?
-At me… d’oh! I caught you…
He can eat and look at me at the same time? How… disturbing.
-I was making fun of the way you were eating… nothing more.
While I was saying that I caught a frayed potato and gave it a bite.
-I don’t believe you.
-Why not? What do you think I was doing?
-Nothing! It’s just that…Since… Since a couple of days before I… I’ve been seeing how… How you look at me…
He looked down at his food and started playing with it. I kept looking at him, to make him finish the sentence.
-You keep staring at me… just like right now… It’s just… I don’t know… Forget it…
He threw himself back, but still looking at the food.
-Anthony, honey. We talked about this loads of times. I love you, as a brother. You’re just funny…
I smiled at him when he looked up. He smiled back.
-Well, it’s a little fucking creepy…
-Besides… Don’t you have a girlfriend ‘round there?
-What!? … I don’t know what you’re talking about… I don’t have a girlfriend; I had one once… but not now… Still single… You?
-I don’t, you know I don’t. We almost live together; you know everywhere I go, and everyone I meet, because it’s just you… But you? Having a girlfriend? I don’t believe you… I just can’t imagine it.
-Why not? I was like, what? Thirteen?
-Yeah right… and I never noticed…
-I was living in Jersey by then, you idiot…
-In…? Ah, you’re right, sorry… I was thirteen when we met not you… Sorry
-Well… that’s it… I had one… So, tell me: if you’ve never had a boyfriend, have you ever kissed somebody?
-That’s totally out of the point…
I blushed.
-Tell me, we’re in confidence.
He smirked at me.
-Don’t smile that way! Besides, if I’ve never kissed somebody, what would you do?
-Kiss you…
He said that whispering. And I pretended I haven’t heard it.
-So? What would you do?
-Don’t know…Find you a boyfriend?
-No way! Don’t even think about it!
-Women are all the same…
-Why?
-They say they love you, and then they dump you like a garbage bag…
-That has nothing to do with what we were talking about. But tell me: The Jersey girl dumped you?
-Yeah…Pity, don’t you think?
-How could she? If I were dating you, I’d never dump you, ever!
He smiled like a winner…
-I’m not telling that… I just… I was only… I mean-
-It’s okay… I understand. But tell me, aren’t women all the same?
-I’m not like that…
-You’re not a woman-
-I beg your pardon!?
-No! I was just saying that-
-Don’t try to explain yourself, Dipshit: I get you… I’m like one of your boyfriends, am I? Am I!?
I looked away. I was pissed off… again. How could he tell me something like that? Doesn’t he think before talking or what?
-Lily I-
(Silence)
-When I look at you, I see the perfect woman.
I looked at him, now I was interested.
-But then I realize that it’ll never work… What I’m trying to say is that I don’t see you as ‘a woman’… You’re special, you know?
-Aww… You’re cute! Honey, it’s okay, I realize too that it’ll never work… We’re brother and sister…
We looked at each other for a long time, and then we paid for the food and walked out of Mickey’s. We were having such a good time. He really understands me, you know? Thinking about that I smiled.


xo-

*End Of Transmission*

*Not knowing you'd change for just one bite...*