Always Where I Need To Be

I'm sick of being expected to react in a way everybody knows I don't. And what's up with people that think they know you but they really don't? Like saying, someone does something for you cuz they believe you won't be able to or that you're just gonna go nuts if asked. And then they throw it to your face or they give you a straight face, like: 'uh, you could've done this yourself', but they never even asked you if you could do whatever it is they did for you! Talking about reproaching... what would anyone do that? I mean, in that moment, you did it because you wanted to, or you didn't bother doing it. So, whay the heck would you come now and say: 'oh, I did that for you that time, remember?!' Or: 'Don't you forget about that time when...?' Douchebags! First class jerks. Putting aside my rambling... I've always been way too nice to people around me. Not that I'm a little princess, right? But, if ever asked,...

Happiness. What does it even mean? My question being: Does it exist? When you look it up on the disctionary says: 'mental state of well-being characterized by positive emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy'. Look me in the eye and tell me you've ever felt... 'intense joy'. There's not such thing as 'intense joy'. There's 'joy', of course... maybe. But there's no 'happiness'. Not as the dictionary says anyways. Cutting to the chase, I've never felt 'intense joy'; not that I had any reasons to, but you know what I mean. Life sucks in so many ways! And it doesn't get any better. Even though your parents tell you all the time that highschool's just a phase, and college's gonna be awesome! Lies. Lies, lies, lies. It does not get better, it just sucks in a different way. Okay, maybe it doesn't suck that much, but sucks nonetheless. Talking about non feeling 'happiness', I've never met a...

Adam & Eve, what up with those dudes? My question being: what up with people still thinking they were just two persons? It is called interpretation, people! Putting aside that it's been proved that we come from the apes, how can any living human being (in this century) believe that the whole Human society came from just a man and a woman? Furthermore, how can they even remotely think that the first woman come from the first man? Okay, that kinda makes sense, cuz the first man (aka: Adam) was created by God from dirt. Which, totally makes sense. But the first woman... see? The very first woman God created needed to come from something a little bit more complicated than simple, stupid, dirt. So he took one of Adam's ribs, and created Eve. That maybe why we are more intelligent... then again, we paid that up with the goddamned Original Sin -thank you so much, Lucifer, you're some friend to trust- Anyways: don't you see the big contradiction here? First of all: genetica...

You know? 'Best friends' can suck it! You give them your everything in return of what? Nothing! Absolutely-freaking-nothing. The worst part being, you don't even ask for them to give you something in return; but let's be realistic, guys: everybody wants something in return. To feel a little bit appreciated once in a while...? Am I asking for too much? Don't answer that, never mind. Does 'best friends' really exist? My question being: what up with the word 'best'? What makes them the 'best'? Is it the fact that they're next to you in the best and worst of times? (or at least they think they are...) Is it the fact that your parents like them? Or they let you hang out with them because they're not 'taking you down the wrong road'? I mean, c'mon! 'Best friends' are fucking overrated. They have nothing of 'best'. They're just common people, like you and me. They can't give you advice on anything cuz they...

I've lost all hope in love. I used to believe in it... well, I still believe in some kind of 'love'. But it's not a magical thing anymore. I used to think that love was this amazing bond between two individuals, some sort of destiny or fate for us to fulfill. I was wrong. It's just a chemical reaction that makes you make all the wrong choices. It casts out your common sense. It makes you change; not in the good way. It takes you aways from yourself. It pushes you away from your family and friends. It makes you cold with everyone other than 'the love interest'. It summons up the worst of yourself. It makes you be the worst 'you' you can be. I realized I lost hope in love when, while watching a movie, I couldn't empathize with the characters. Something that never happened to me before. I used to be this secretive romantic idiot that beleived things that happened in movies could happen in real life. Now I know that's not true. Movies are pure sh...